Hye darling

Dear Baby,

It has been nearly 4 months since Ibu neglected this blog because of you. I have always wanted to write something about you in my belly (read : uterus), so that someday, when you wanted to know more about you and me, you can read it from my blog. I have always imagined how would I described our journey in beautifully crafted words, but unfortunately our early journey has been upside down, yet, I am so glad that I had to experience it; with you.

Anyway, ibu and ayah had you 3 years after we got married. For the first 2 years, we didn't really think about being `single' because we both were not settle down; `physically', with I had to travel to see him here and there. So, we were good and we understood Allah has better plan for both of us.

Coming to third year, we knew we had to do the next step, to seek for medical treatment. And Alhamdulillah, by went through a minor surgery back in March 2013 at HUKM, we had you. As soon as I saw the double line on the pregnancy test kid, I went to see my ayah (read : your future atuk) because your father was not home. I was so excited that I asked my ayah whether double line means I am pregnant. And guess what was his answered " Ayah pun dah tak ingat la, Hanie. Dah lama tak tengok, hahaha!". Isn't that funny? But I remembered how my ayah hugged me when he heard the news. I guess he was so happy that I was finally pregnant.

This is when I knew how epidural `taste'.

 

To share the joy, I went to see your father. He was doing his locum in a clinic at Taman Permata. So, I waited patiently outside his room (because the clinic was packed with patients), to show him the pregnancy test stick. When I showed him the stick, guess what he said " Go and pee again on these sticks." He gave me another 2 sticks to pee on. So, altogether, Ibu peed on 3 sticks to get you confirmed, hehehe! Then, we went to scan you and base on your measurement, you were about 6 weeks. Weeee!!!

 

* The coming week, we received news from (ok, what are your going to call my brother - your future uncle. We decide later la,ok?) my brother. His wife is pregnant too. Yay! Double happiness!!! You will have a good company as soon as you are born, darling. Isn't that great?

So, we both pregnant!

 

 

 

We didn't tell anyone about you yet since your father thought it was too early to tell. But, of course, my sisters (read: your future aunties) were to excited that they had the news on Instagram that Ibu had started to receive congratulating SMSs from others. It's okay. I guess everyone was very excited too because you will be my ayah's first grandchild and you also will be the first reason that all my aunts and uncles on my ayah's side (read : your future grandpas and grandmas) will be called as atuk and opah, hahaha! You will have uncles and aunties at about your age too, sayang, because Ibu is the eldest in the family. We will decide later what will you call them. So, bear with it, okay? hehehe!

These are only 1/4 of them ok, sayang? You will have more than this.

 

Anyway, moving to 8th weeks, my morning sickness kicked in. Okay, it was not exactly morning sickness, because Ibu will feel very week and started to vomit by 5 pm onwards. Actually kan, sayang, it was good because you gave me time to get on LRT and go to work in the morning and felt weak in the evening. So, thank you for that! But, pity your father because he had to do everything by himself; yet he was very cool. He basically granted our wishes from what to eat, how to sit and everything. He followed exactly what we wanted, so you must be thankful to him for this, sayang. Not once he said no to our request, tau.

 

Ibu wanted to stay strong, so, I still accompany him to the laundry every weekend and did coin collection at our self service coin operated machine in UM (because your father couldn't go into women's block). Sometimes my sisters accompany me too (you have no idea how heavy the coins were). Ibu still did all the receipt and delivery order to our customers. We even went back to Kelantan; driving to attend your cousin's aqiqah. I hope you will be stronger when you arrived.

Along the way, Ibu figured so many things that I suddenly disliked. I couldn't stand scented body wash, Softlan, the cloth softer, laksa (my favorite dish ni, sayang oiii), that your father kept looking for the best option for our body wash. From Dettol to pH5.5 to St.Ives. Now, we finally had the correct body wash. Your father has never gave up on us.So, don't be to him in the future, will you.

Basically sayang from the 8th weeks to 17th weeks, Ibu looked and doing horrible. I had no appetite and vomit every evening to bed time. But, it is okay. It was not easy to bring a Khalifah to this world. And during the first week of Ramadhan, I had eyes infection. I was on MC for 7 days, sayang. Thank God my manager and my colleagues were very understanding that they covered my job for the whole time.

The long queued of eyes drops

 

Now, today, we are already at our 21 weeks, darling. Ibu is yet to feel anything in my tummy. But, I know you are okay because my tummy is getting bigger and bigger. Your father had scanned you for nearly 5 times along the time, just to make sure you are okay. This one time, when you were at 15th weeks, your father sort of kacau you with the scan stick that you were moving as if you were tickled, hehe! Oh yes, you were 56 gram at that time.I know you are okay.

You at 56grams

So far, we both are being treated like a royal, be it by your father and my parents. Whenever I said that I want to eat something, my parents will definitely cook it.Last time, Ibu requested for Kuah Celok (this one vegetable dish) my Ibu cooked it. My Ibu fried cekodok everyday during Ramadhan because I will eat a lot of cekodok buring berbuka. Then, on the 7th day of Syawal, Ibu felt like to eat Lontong, my Ibu prepared them with the help of my sister, counsin and aunt. So, that showed how much they care. So, make sure sayang, when you are big, you must always remember them.  Not to forget, whenever we went back to Kelantan, Ibu loves to eat pulut bakar, nasi kak wok, nasi berlauk pagi and kuih cek mek. Your father has never failed to feed me with these food every time we were in Kelantan. And I am also glad, that I didn't gain any weight during our first trimester. That's how it should be, because I will definitely gain more weight during our second and third trimester. 

Semua ni I finished by myself tau,hehe!

Oh, yes, sayang. Now, we had started to do some preparation for you too. Your father had come up with a good list on what to buy for you, he was even the one who started to buy the PaMa magazine (this pregnant and parenting magazine), surprisingly. Me? I literally looking after myself only, thinking of going through day by day. Don't get me wrong, sayang, I am struggling but by having my family especially your father, I know I'll manage.

 

So, yes, your father has planned that we will buy you a baby coat, baby basket ( I think that's what they called this). The one that we saw at Mother Care, the basket is actually attached to a swing. I don't want what was it called, let me find a picture of if later. See if you like it. And, yes, your father is planning to buy an automatic breast pump too, so that you can be feed up til your 2 years old. Then, of course those cute baju, so, tempting. What else do you need sayang? Your father basically think, if you want to sleep, we need baby coat (so - baby coat). To eat first, 6 months breast milk (so - bottle and breast pump), To bath (so - baby bath tub with a stand), to travel ( so - baby basket and car seat when you are already 6 months). Hem, that should be it la,kan?

We have you covered for the first three days

                                          

Oh, in September, every Sunday, we are attending the gentle birth Amani class. It is a class which all info on how pregnancy and delivery can be manage as natural as possible. Ibu planned to deliver you at home in a water pool if your condition and position are fine. To do that, we need to gather as much info and knowledge as we can. I am amazed by your father's excitement to join the class and do his own reading and booking to attend the class. Alhmadulillah, we both are bless to have him in our life, sayang. If it is not possible, I will make sure you will be delivered by a Muslim woman obs, iAlllah.

 

Apa lagi ye, sayang? Oh, this Wednesday, we had our routine check up at HUKM. This time, your father will accompany me. He missed the last two because he had just moved from Malacca to Setapak, he couldn't take leave anyway.

Two books, sayang. I lost the first one, hehe! Tiba-tiba jumpa balik.

 

Name? Ibu had one particular name already whether you are a boy or a girl. I hope your father is okay with them. Don't worry, I am not planning a 3 phrases name, it will be short with a good meaning and resemble one of the Rasullah's sahabat and a good Muslimah in the history. I hope you will like it.

I think that's all la, sayang. If I have any more updates, I will write more soon.

Love,

Ibu.

Your father even sent me for pre-natal massage, sayang. Wasn't he an angel or what? =)